I WONDER WHO MY DADDY IS?
I may wonder until the end of this life…relatives are older, many are not interested in sharing and many are not tested. Still I wonder….it’s not as important to me as I once felt, but in my down time, I do search for his identity.
Searching actually makes me sad….
It is November 7, 2018 and I am still in the game. My weight is holding steady way above my goal. But, with the news I received this year, its no wonder I’m not 300 lbs, so I have at least maintained despite by diagnosis, so that is something to celebrate.
I actually miss this blog. I enjoy reading my writing. Writing has always been an outlet, I definitely should do this more often. I am just writing now to say, I’M STILL STANDING, I’M STILL FIGHTING!!
I started CKO Kickboxing September 1 and surprisingly I enjoy. WOW! It’s intense. Tough, but I use my entire body. I can see the difference in my shape and tone. I’m sweating more and that is definitely good for this lump system.
I am contemplating a hair cut. Just need to find something I like. My hair is bra strap length and HUGE. I love it, but it is also just blah. I want my curls to pop. The length prevents that. So, I have a major decision to make in the future. At some point, I think I will just say cut it…but, for now, a trim will do. 🙂
Started 72 day re-set….this is not only to lose some weight, but to RESET my thinking and behaviors. I’ve been writing/THINKING about it for too long. Time to COMMIT to do something about it. Time to change the way I THINK. My weight is way above when I first started writing. My goal is no longer numbers but DAYS! Each DAY, I must put forth effort and THINK about what goes in my mouth and how active I am. I have photos and actual numbers I WILL REMAIN COMMITTED.
Looking back on previous posts, I WAS so encouraging. In 2012, I was contemplating going gray, not ready yet. Today, I have embraced my salt/pepper. In 2013, I was struggling with bad habits, but much more active. That is how I know it’s my THINKING. I am so glad, I kept these…I see my struggle, but I also see I haven’t GIVEN UP. So, onward, GROWING HEARTMINDBODY!
Diet and Faith go hand in hand. Weight loss is about more than the number on the scale. Its about gaining knowledge…applying knowledge…not giving up…its about losing old baggage and gaining emotional and physical strength. As your strength grows, so does your power…will power and determination…it reminds me of a Bible verse 2 Peter 1:5-8…faith grows with knowledge and application…our body changes with knowledge and application…
I seem to think in “Seasons”…It is now Fall. As I reflect on the Spring and Summer of this year, I feel…well, a bit disappointed that I did not reach my weight loss goals. It is so defeating…In fact, I have gained 10 lbs…despite tremendous effort. I am rarely satisfied…I don’t have the time, energy or financial resources to invest in more than I am doing. I have googled every plan from Weight Watchers to Atkins to Paleo. I have “pinned” all low carb recipes…I am trying…I guess I will have to continue to try…
All is not lost, I have gained a LOT of insight into my eating patterns, calories, that sugar free is NOT sugar free. I definitely have more endurance and I feel stronger. I would just be happy to see the scale go downward…it is still a GOAL…Goals are good, right?
I have conquered another diet beast…ASPARTAME. After learning what aspartame is and does (creates tiny holes in cellular membrane) I kicked my diet soda, crystal light and sugar free gum habit once and for all. It is not easy. But, finding substitutes has helped. For example, instead of drinking pitchers of crystal light and water, now I drink water flavored with decaf tea w/ stevia. I found mints w/xylitol and chocolate with chicory root. Yesterday, I felt awful, but slept my best. Today…is a good “mood” day….wow!
Well, a first today….I signed up for a webinar by Maria Emmerich. I have followed her blogs and Pinterest and see really amazing recipes and results. I have gotta wake up my metabolism. I’m spending a small fortune on supplements, I am TRYING to eat right and exercise. I have to complete the triangle with this next move…All the best as we grow in heart, mind, and body…
Ok, just re-starting my exercise routine. Pretty proud of myself this week. Diet not so bad. Staying pretty focused. There is a new treadmill with games at the gym. I hopped on did a 15 minute mile pace with a reasonable incline and the shins are killing me. Not to mention, I torch more calories on the elliptical. Went back to the elliptical yesterday. Nice pace. I will have to work back up to my 11 resistance. Knees are achy too. I’m sure its some kind of i-tis. This age thing is no fun. Only the wisdom that comes from it.
Didn’t remain focused at all. Back on track now and hoping to stay focused. Will maintain low carb, no sugar lifestyle. Getting hair done in another protective style so I can begin to workout hard. Here we go….
This is very easy and VERY tasty. Even my young adult daughters ate slices. My only complaint is that it is not easy to eat without a fork. The recipe can be found at:
1. No Carb Pizza
from accidental mommies blog
- 1 (8 oz.) package of full fat cream cheese (room temp.)
- 2 eggs
- Freshly ground black pepper
- Garlic powder
- 1/4 cup grated parmesan cheese
- A pinch of cayenne pepper
- 1/2 teaspoon oregano
- 1 cup shredded mozzarella cheese
- Sauteed pepperoni
- Garlic powder
- Preheat oven to 350.
- Butter a 9×13 baking dish
- Blend cream cheese and eggs and season with pepper & garlic powder
- Add parmesan cheese and stir until combined
- Pour into buttered baking dish
- Bake for 17 minutes or until golden brown
- Let crust cool for 10 minutes before adding toppings
- After crust is cooked, raise oven to 400 degrees
- Mix together marinara sauce, garlic powder, cayenne pepper & oregano
- Top crust with marinara and spread evenly
- Top with mozzarella cheese
- Add toppings
- Bake for 8 minutes or until cheese is bubbly
One pie is pepperoni only. The other is pepperoni, banana peppers and onions. I found another recipe for a stiffer crust. See pics….